feel weird. The past week has been so strange. My roommate has been out of town, and I am really excited to go home, and work has really slowed down so I am not that busy…. I feel weird and kinda, well, board.
I don’t really feel like getting all involved or started on a new project because I leave for the states in less than a week. And so I am sleeping in, and not really going out, and just going to work… being a real homebody… and it’s fucking weird as hell. I never stay home this much. But I just don’t wanna go out the front door, I can’t be asked to. It’s strange. (wow, I really am going crazy)
And I am so fucking excited to go home. And it’s kinda freaking me out how much I am looking forward to it. It’s surprises me that I am so excited about it. I’m afraid I am gonna wanna stay or something.
Non-sense- impossible. But still. I’m all twitter-pated and excited about next week- but this week is like, stagnation city.
Stayed up till 4 in the morning watching old Dawson Creeks and last season OC. Seriously… what the fuck is happening to me?
I feel like I am in the calm before the storm. Feels so weird.
I feel like I just wanna get drunk until I go. And I just might. Just drink my way thru this week. If I had the stamina I just might… but that would be so 2001. ha.
Anyway. Have a few errand I have blown off for like 6 days and now I HAVE to do them. So despite the almost rainy weather, I’m going out there today.
Yikes.
words from your concerned friend...
ReplyDeletedon't drink the week away. it will be better to come home clear-headed. drinking may numb your weirdness right now, but don't forget it's just a bandaid. you'll be thankful in the long-run if you don't have a cloudy head so you can see the light and get a clear picture of why you are missing home so much. my two cents.
obviously I won't. Didn't say I was going to, just said I wanted to. (I mean, I'd love to be able to drink without hang-overs, spending money and guilt... but that shit just doesn't happen anymore....). You needen't be concerned, I'm fine. Crazy like a fox, but fine.
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